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| Brewed In Confusion by jcogtas |
I am a mystery to myself. People may not be able to say the same for me but I guess they know better. People wonder about me, trying to see see through me and they claim that they succeed but I can say otherwise. I wonder about the same thing just as much as everyone. It's not that I'm claiming that most people always think of me but when they do, we both are in deep. I'm confused and a stranger to my own self. With the people that surrounds me, brewed in confusion. I'm in the same hole as everyone trying to swim out of it but either way, I'll stay here and continue to try.
With the thought if someone can possibly not know who they are, I completely agree. Our minds are just filled with questions we can't seem to answer.
Being confused is normal. It happens to us most of the time but when it happens constantly about things that you should be certain about, its makes you ask the question "Why do we get confused". The philosophy behind confusion is that confusion is necessary in the process of learning. If you are never confused, there is no incentive to do anything other than what you already know. There is no grounds for curiosity, no opening for discussion, nothing except a kind of authoritative dictum in which nothing ever really changes. Does that mean our confusion towards everything is completely normal? We all know that confusion doesn’t feel good. The human brain is a pattern-recognition machine. It evolved to identify related events or artifacts and connect them into a meaningful whole. This capacity serves us well in many of our endeavors, from recognizing the underlying themes in literature, to understanding the deep structure of a scientific or mathematical problem, to anticipating hidden complications and seeing their solutions in our work. Every time we get confused, we get to learn something from seeking answers for our confusion. It get tiring, I know but every time we answer a question in our heads, we are a step closer to the answer of our existence. It's incredible how we still need to be in agony to reach ecstasy but if you don't sow, you don't reap.
People say they know me very well and all I can say is that "Good for you!". It's cool how they know me better than I do. My confusion is as deep as the ocean and people think they can swim right out of it. The only difference with this quote and my situation is that, I tend to find the answer and solution all by myself. I don't believe that we need companions in every step we take in life. I want that on that very step it will be me and only me on there. It sounds completely selfish but this is my milestone and I want to be the one who gets claim it. It's my problem, let me solve it myself. I don't plan to involve other people in such. I believe that it is only in solitude that a person can see deeply his/her inner self, potentials, limitations and weaknesses. One learns to rise from where he/she has fallen when isolated. I guess you can consider me a bit of an introvert but I enjoy it like that, plus the fact that I'm also a melancholic makes me really wanna do things myself because of my perfectionism. If you want things to get done right, do it yourself. I want to claim that victory myself. I don't want other people saying that they found me when it was all me. I want to be the victor of my own life.
This quotation states that I don't have similar understanding of myself like other people do. If you are perplexed because of me, then I'm perplexed because of me too. We both are in the same hole and we can't seem to swim right of it. I'm just as deep down as a everyone. Everyone is confused because of me and no one seems to be able to answer that quickly but even in the midst of confusion, I will be staying in this world with everyone else, square or a rectangle, trying to find me. That's the only certainty in my mind.
In the popular culture, I'm sure other teenager are just as confused as me. We just don't know anything about life anymore. This personality is not unique. It is a mental crisis and all of the symptoms are kinda similar to what the quote is actually tackling about. Identity crisis' are common between teenagers. An Identity Crisis is a period of uncertainty and confusion in which a person's sense of identity becomes insecure, typically due to a change in their expected aims or role in society. An Identity Crisis makes you question your identity. You get to experience great personal conflict due to the questioning of who you are or your role in society. Mostly when big changes have recently occurred that have affected your sense of self. You’ll be questioning things such as your values, spirituality, beliefs, interests, or career path that have a major impact on how you see yourself. And lastly, being in search of your meaning, reason, or your passion in life. It’s completely normal to question who you are, especially since we change throughout our lives. However, when it begins to affect your daily thinking or functioning, you may be having an identity crisis.
That's life. It's perplexing. It's puzzling. It's confusing but what can we do other than make the most of it? It's crazy in this world. The only thing I would do differently is where I would find my way on my own because I always saw life better like that. I prefer it that way. In the steams of confusion, make it an approach for you to pursue knowledge in a way. See the light in the darkness life has brought to us. It will make a better view of the agony we have always lived in.
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